Moving On

I find it's getting easier, living life without you and that in itself is it's own cruel pain. To know that my life is going on without you and I'm getting used to this loneliness. To know that someday, sooner than I thought, I will think of you and not hurt at all. I will finally accept the fact that you are gone. Someday soon you won't be in my dreams anymore. And I won't be disappointed when I wake and find it was a dream and you are still gone. It was almost easy to accept that you didn't love me anymore because I was in love with loving you. And even when you were gone my love for you would remain. And that sustained me. But that too is fading and I am truelly lonely now. I have reached into that place from where all my love once flowed and I have found the well is dry. I painted this portrait of you, as you looked when you loved me, and I poured all the love I had left into it. Hopefully it will stand as a monument to that love. And some lonely cold night I will look at it and remember how completely I loved you, and how powerful my love can be. But most of all I will remember that you once loved me

Nursery Rhyme

They teach us about true love and happily ever after but like Humpty Dumpty they always fall off the wall.And all the kings horses and all the kings men Will never get it back together again
The best you can hope for is to find little Miss Muffet sitting on her tuffet and try it all over again.

Alone

One lover walks away
One sinks underground
A child called home to his maker
And here I sit lost and alone

Like fire the balm hits my throat
Like silk another through the nose

Try to push it all back
Try to make it go away
But in the end they're still gone
And here I sit lost and alone

Circles

A name, a key
Past lives intertwined
The persistence of memory
On my tongue
An unregistered image
A symbol
A circle
Eyes meet
Recognition shared
Deja Vu
Love lost
Found again
And lost
A circle

Sleep

Mother earth, open your arms
let me feel their cool soothing embrace
let me climb back into my earthen womb
and sleep once again

let me forget this life i have lived until now
this life where everyone leaves
and love so temporary is a disposable thing
let me feel your balm on the wounds of my heart

let time herself whisper sweet lullabyes into my sleeping ears
let me slumber under waves of summer wheat
I long for darkness, silence, nothing there
except the sweet whisper of wind above

The Kiss

Another old poem of mine.

Stuck in the hold of your warm embrace
Moonlight streaming down your innocent face
Angel sheds a silent tear
To see such beauty brought down here

After everything I've done, all that I've seen
All that I've heard, everywhere I've been
Your smile melts my vagabond heart
Thought I was too sensible for love, too damn smart

But I look through your eyes at the world so new
And I feel so anxious, I don't know what to do
Through all of my travels this is what I've missed
And I learned all of this from just one kiss

God hates a coward.

Wrote this years ago and thought I'd share.

Coward As dreaming child, would come to me the instant that I woke an early rider, clad in fairest silk upon a horse, itself as pale as she. And to my window she would call her hand raised, beckoning "Come ride with me across the dawn. This chance is given seldom and to few and may not come again." But I was bound by youth, or too afraid to sieze the promise of that wild ride. And so awoke to rise and face the day bearing the name of coward in my mind. As man I stand beside that horse, now riderless. So many have I lifted to it's back, only to watch them slip and fall or trample me with sudden, angry hooves. Where are you now my early rider? So many years gone by Perhaps you gallop, spirit-wild, and with you rides another soul more free, more brave than I across the boundless scape of childhood dreams. If you love someone seize the moment. Fuck cowardice and fuck what others think. We are given very few chances in life at real love. Just follow your heart and the rest will fall into place. Nothing worth having in life comes easy and god hates a coward.